Hello there, strep

Justin has his first case of strep. I am so leery of strep, that I have disinfected our house from top to bottom and thrown everything in the dishwasher the minute it leaves Justin's mouth. My neighbor's 8 year old gets it often and I always avoid a playdate for days after the diagnosis. I have never seen Justin so lethargic. I think that our entire family has fried brain cells after watching TV non-stop on Friday and Saturday. I don't think we have ever done that, but Justin couldn't move from the couch to do anything. Sad thing is we didn't take him to the doctor until Saturday because I kept thinking it was a random virus. Plus we had been there 5 days prior for the cut on the back of his head.

Funny thing I learned while at the doctor's office. Justin is the same height his father was at 3 years and 9 months. Derek's mom found a growth chart of Derek's and he happened to go to the doctor at this same time in his life. Both fellas are 42 3/4 inches tall. Derek has been at least 2 inches than Justin at each stage in his life thus far, so the fact JT caught up is awesome. Here's the kicker - Derek weighed 45 pounds! I thought Justin weighed in hefty at 42 pounds, but how much bigger was his father being a full 3 pounds heavier! Breaks my back just thinking about it.

Our pastor gave a great talk today on Empty Wombs and Full Hearts. I went solo since Justin was sickie and I had nursery duty during the second hour. I left knowing that I am complete even though I am currently infertile. I am thankful that the desire for having a child is not my idol. The question was can I come to a place where His plan is better than us having another child. Can I trust that Christ is enough?

Pastor Gregg interviewed a couple who had tried for three years to have a child. They echoed a prayer of I had been feeling for a long time: Lord, we don't want the doctors to get the glory and pray that only You get the glory. I am positive that is why I have no desire to get medical help on this issue. I know everyone means well when they constantly throw out their many methods that might help me out. But that isn't the point. It's an individual trial, one that no one else is invited to join me in.

I am attending a dinner on Thursday night with another comrad just for women going through infertility. I am thankful for the others the Lord has placed in my path to relate to. I am thankful for this refining that I have been required to go through. I am thankful for a church that can relate to every area of need. When Pastor Gregg and the entire congregation was praying in intercession for all the infertile couples at the altar, I knew I was where I was needed to be. I have been chosen for such a time as this. And what this is, well, it will be an adventure, whatever the outcome.

But for now, I need to go get this bat boy back to his old self. Because he is one of the many reasons why I am complete.